First off, i appologized for rachel about the whole racist thing, because it was my fault for not really thinking through the ramifications of what i was saying, and i didn't word it to the best of my ability.

i feel a little better because i'm getting help, tomorrow morning, i hope... if i don't chicken out....


Speaking of tomorrow and chickening out i have a spanish quiz.... shoot... i don't even remeber what we studied last.... (will have to review right before). And Margot, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BE THERE!!!! EVERYTHING IN SPANISH SEEMS BETTER WITH YOU AROUND!!!! (yeah, i know i sound like a sap, but it's true!!!! I'm so lost without you!!!!) <-{i would just like to point out i have a raging headache, a guilty concious, a raging war going on in my head, and i'm very tired and lightheaded and can't be held responsible for anytihng i say}



also, things might be ok with james, i don't know... if he's willing to go through the long painful process of earning my trust again, i guess i'll give him a chance (plus, though my head has yelled at me, screaming that i hate him, my heart still loves the dude...)

as for Cody? well hey, i was gunna texty him bout how i feel, but you know what? with the whole James thing going on, i might just hold off on that, right now i can only deal with one guy at a time, and James will sadly, always get top priority.

and in one night, after all seems to have gone through hell, it all kinda turned out ok in the end.....? jeez, talk about teenage soap opera..... but i blame my house, currently it is one big hormone fest... yeah, i still hate being a girl... but hey, what can i do? we all gotta deal with it.

but i just want to let anyone who is reading this know, that the next week or so for me, isn't going to be fun. and it's not just because of the whole girl thing, or even the fact that schools ending, just... i'm guessing i'm going to be having to make some serious changes, and they ain't gunna be fun. so please, just bear with me...


AND HEY! GUESS WHO JUST GOT A RECOGNITION FROM THE POEMS FOR LIFE CLUB?!?!
[link] ME!!!

Alls well that ends well, eh? my dear Watson. (don't ask, been doing that a lot today.... don't know why, though you would think the reason would be quite elementary, but it's not...)