Ok, so that last journal i posted about Rachel, you all know i didn't mean to put that up here to try to make you guys (those of you who i know in real life) pick sides right?

well this isn't to make you pick sides either, this is just a rant.
I repeat I"M NOT ASKING ANY OF YOU GUYS TO TAKE SIDES IN ANY ARGUMENT BETWEEN ME AND RACHEL.

So when i get all huffy and puffy because SHE tried to stick Kris in the middle of it, i'm not trying to make you all think she's evil. i'm just ranting

But she did!
She told MY BEST FRIEND that i called her a RACIST!!! WHEN I DIDN"T!!! AND THEN: that was ALL she told him "oh my day was terrible, Amelia called me a racist" without even telling him what SHE said to make me say that her STATEMENT was racist....

and i'm just really pissed off at her, because it's bad enough i have the whole "OMG, Amelia's a Hitler Loving Nazi" thing still floating over my head thanks to Delany, now Rachel's going around telling everyone i called her a racist!

And she KNOWS I consider Kris to be my best friend, considering i kinda bring that up practically every time i talk about Kris, and then she brought him into the middle of our arguement!!!

GGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


And as if things couldn't get worse, my mom's done nothing but yelled at me all day,

And sure i may just be a whiney little spoiled brat, but i'm really pissed off, to the point where i'm cussing in my inner monolauges!!!!
I feel like i'm at war with Rachel, i don't want to get you guys involved, but by now she's pretty much friends with all my other friends (all because i introduced her last year, and let her hang out with us as a freshman because i felt bad that she and i were coming from the same place, but i was walking into a circle of opened armed friends, and she didn't know anyone), and that was ok, but then she tries to start to make my friends turn against me. And i was kinda talking to john about it, and he seemed to understand, but it's not like i can REALLY talk to him about it, because she's acting like he's still her lapdog!


And i'm just having one bg melt down between the whole Rachel thing, the John thing, Cody leaving, and James still wanting to be friends while my head says i hate him, but my heart says i still have feelings for him and SHITZU! I"M SICK OF BEING A TEENAGE GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!